Hello stranger.

It's been a while, I know.
Bad times on my part.

I've done a fair bit since my last blog, but there's no point my doing an epic essay, most of it is on facebook if I'm honest. Oh, but now I'm on twitter! Haha, tweeting away... Not sure if that's good or bad?
Hockey pre-season has started up, one game left, Slough have won only one out of the three games, I cant believe we lost both games against Bracknell. Fiona will never let me live that down! Anyway, none the less I'm very excited for Saturday when the season starts up again with our first game against Manchester, I'm goal judging... I'm a little nervous, as I made a mistake last time against Bracknell, but it should be fine! :) I've also got my season ticket now - I feel like a part of the Jets this season, which is nice. I'm happy being back at Slough with my family, although this family photo (taken by my lovely friend Vincent Shiel) is at the Hive - Bracknell's home ground. Good times!



My dissertation work is going well, got a lot down for 2/3 of the things Jonathon wants in, just need to make a start on the main on, but I just need to get all my notes in order and work out how I'm going to structure this beastly essay. So far things are going well, I just need to carry on with it, not get angry and lose my temper with it. Trying so hard to be positive about it, but I know it's my written work that lets my grades down! Bad times. Any way, I've got a fair bit to do, both with my home stuff and my university stuff, I'll write back to you soon.

I need a dollar....

Dollar is what I need.
Good lord I need to get hold of some moneys... I want to do a back to uni shop, but seeing as funds are a little low at the moment I'm compiling a wish list here so I can get them when the money arrives. New Look is the first stop, 10% student discount for the win! I'll do Topshop tomorrow and so on... I think I need some retail therapy at the moment if I'm honest, things are getting me down. Haven't got too many people I can talk to right now and I don't know who to pick when it comes to it. Honestly I hate off loading my worries onto people as I just feel that they don't need to here me ramble on about my petty problems - I guess that's what my diary is for! Anyway, enough about that. I'll be back tomorrow with more of my wardrobe wish list.

Tea ♥

"Love is stronger than death even though it can’t stop death from happening, but no matter how hard death tries it can’t separate people from love. It can’t take away our memories either. In the end, life is stronger than death."-Unknown



I'm really in the mood to sit and research my dissertation topic with an endless amount of tea. I'd love my own little teapot so that I can just keep the tea coming. One like this would be lovely don't you think? Yes please :) I think this year I was 20 going on 75... I can't help but love an afternoon tea, a biscuit and a book, or a nice film to watch. Bring on a life of cats and tea cosies!



Oh, and just so you know...
I'm not really feeling myself at the moment. There's a sudden lack of self esteem and confidence in me right now, I'd quite like it all back please - I was doing so well. Can't help but think that all of my luck has run out, and I've got to build it all up again. I'm going to spend the rest of my summer holidays reading True Blood and my dissertation books, alongside going ice skating - the only things (at the moment) that take me away from real life - and into my own world, my day dreamer's reality. ♥

Finale Ligure ♥

I have had the best summer holiday with my family.
Right not I have big love for my Taylor/Azzapardi family, and I miss them all so much now I'm back home in boring Hedgerley.



Finale is such a beautiful place, I am so lucky to have been able to go out there for my birthday, also the fact that all of my dad's side was there to celebrate it with me was just amazing. My cousins did so much for me to make the day special, I wouldn't have had my birthday any other way. I loved every second!



All that I want now is to go back.
I am not enjoying being back here, it's dull and so boring... also the looming dissertation deadlines/lack of money are starting to get me down! I'm saving every single penny I can to get my self back out there!

Just over a week..

and I'll be here....


Here's a photo I took the last time I went:

As I lost them all when our home computer died, I'll be taking more to capture Finale, it's such a beautiful place :)

When I'm home alone..

I could sit and listen to Adele all day long, singing away because I know nobody can hear me! I looked up for tickets to go and see her, and as I'm not willing to sell parts of my body, it's safe to say I can't afford to go (sad times!)

Apart from my stupidly loud singing, I've been reading a hell of a lot on Eva Hesse - stupid dissertation! I'm learning so much about her, which is good because having to write 5000-8000 words on her is going to need knowledge! I'm so scared I'm going to fail this damn essay, having such a lack of faith from my supervisor is merely helping my fear. I guess I'll just plough on through it, get it done to a good enough standard to hopefully continue my 2:1 level in essay writing. Which reminds me, researching the PGCE has been a bit of a scarey realisation. They only accept 2:1 grades or higher, lots of motivation and proof of work experience and a keen enthusiasm... I've got a few of those things, but we'll see this time next year how the grade will pan out. It just worries me that if you get a 2:2 you're application has to be exceptional for you to get a place. GAH! So much to do, so much pressure! My hoes will get me there, but I just have to put in a ton of work! >.<

I'd like to be back in Reading working towards my degree.
I know that's silly as the studio isn't even open, but after researching and reading, all I want is to make a start. It's really haunting, just knowing how much there will be to do when I get back. I think I'm going to get started on my sketchbook, as I've been threatening to do this for a while, but I haven't actually done anything! :( Bad times! I've really go to get my act together for next year! 2 and a half months to go until I start my final year - BRING IT ON!

♥ Beautiful