....

That was the day..

that all of my thoughts died.

As we drove home,

from a pretty amazing day - it must be said. All I could think about was you, and whether or not I'll be seeing you this weekend before I go back to university?

I've had an awesome day, meeting my new housemates, seeing Gabby and John as we watched the first comedy night of the year. I felt so relieved to be back there, even though I'm dreading the new year at Reading, there is also a part of me that couldn't be happier.
My Room is pretty cool, big and roomy. It needs a homey touch here and there, but it'll get sorted.










The memories are still etched upon my soul....
And they just won't let me go, so easily.

All the stars were out tonight.

It was like they were shining for you.
I wished upon every single one of them.
All I could think about was how beautiful you really are to me.
Just like those stars.


I've been reading poetry (yes okay, online. But at least I'm making the effort, I'm unsure of what books to buy), I've been learning new words, all in the hope that maybe I'll get a bit smarter. So far so good. I've really enjoyed it actually, words can be so beautiful, but I must say - I feel that romance is lost. However old I may sound with this next comment, it does seem that today's generation doesn't grasp the idea of true love, expressing feelings through poetry, music or even art. I long to be proven wrong, as I'd like to hope that one day someone can show me that love, like it's shown in the movies, and I mean the classic films, still exists.
I think if that ever happened, my faith would be restored in humanity.






I'm not trying to impress you, I just want you to know who I am. ♥

Today I

wrote you a love letter.
I doubt you'll ever get it.
Maybe if things were different, maybe if I knew where I was right now.

You told me that if things weren't how I wanted them to be - end it - sort the troubles out, but I'm struggling to figure out what that means. Its so hard to understand out where I should be at this stage, has it gone too far? Can another path be taken? Will I ever have the knowledge to determine how I feel, or understand what this all means? I must have gone this far for a reason, but it seems that no one is capable of explaining it to me how or why.
It's getting harder.

If only I knew what this feeling is.
Panic? Fear? Love?
Gosh, why is it so hard to label emotion.
When do you know to make the right decision?

Far too many unanswered questions, I can't seem to find myself in any of them.





'please, give me something,
because someday I might know my heart'

....

Life isn't about finding yourself. Life is about creating yourself.
- George Bernard Shaw


I couldn't have put it better myself.





You do not know how amazing you are to me.

Pinch punch.

- first of the month.


I have got a strange sort of feeling about October, so much is going on within it that it could either be a good or bad month. Stupidly I'm putting my money on good, as I get a semi new start at things; art, social life and being independent etc, but I need to weigh up whether the old aspects of my life need changing. I found this quote on a friends face book.. It's pretty true actually, I think more people need to live to it:

'Life is too short to wake up in the morning with regrets, so love the people who treat you right and forget the ones that don't and believe that everything happens for a reason. If you get a chance, take it. If it changes your life, let it. Nobody said it would be easy, they just said it would be worth it.'
- Anonymous.




watch me fall for you...