Stone Sour ♥

Let's be honest - I watched you walk away
You went off to find - anything else - anything less
I guess...
I´m only honest - I'm only here to say, yeah
You've been gone so long - everything else - is already less
On your own...

I'm a Slave - I will Beg
All I want is something better - something that is safe
You can say - you will stay
But I know fucking better - you will never change.

More art... less ranting.

This is a piece by Mark Ryden called 'Awakening the Moon' that I saw at the Frieze Fair this year. It's beautiful.
Oh.. and so my blogs shall start to contain more arty images and more of my own drawings - therefore less of my ranting, which is always good!

This evening

has been rather odd.

Today I've been through so many emotions, I've been completely pissed off, calm and content and even all panicky/anxious, it's been crazy - where it has come from is any ones guess... I'm really getting tired of this, so to be fair when Christmas comes things will be much better - firstly Lisa is coming from Italy with the boys!! And secondly I'll get out of Reading, away from art, and back home to some familiarity, which is odd because I always thought home was the problem. Seems my thoughts are all over the place, it'll be great to get back into going on walks, taking my journal out into the vast fields and greenery that is Hedgerley. One week to go till I come home, lets get through that first - especially as I get my assessment results on Thursday.


Wish me luck!

So glad!!

This week has been so damn stressful! Alas.. It's all over now! All my assessment work is done and handed in, only got essay prep-work to do for Friday.


Oh!
I realised something today.

I don't actually care, I was so stupid to even think half the things I did about you - it's taken me a week and a half, but I have finally realised you mean nothing. Thank you - You made me realise that I am worth so much more than you gave me credit for!

Somedays..

it feels like I've got this scrawled across my forehead:


Hi.
I'm Steph,
Feel free to tell me I'm beautiful, or that you care, or that you want to spend time with me, and then go ahead and treat me like shit... I don't mind.
Honest.



I'm fed up of feeling low.
Also, I'm fed up of people saying they'll do things, or just generally saying things to me then taking it back, or ignoring me, or as I've recently found out telling me things and mocking me behind my back to their friends! What a kick in the balls.. or where ever the equivalent is for a girl. It sure does make you feel like it's worth waking up in the morning.... Not!

It's more

than I can stand.



I will always love this scene.
Note to self: buy the soundtrack!

Dear Documentation...

If you would be so kind as to fuck off - that would be greatly appreciated.
Thanks.



Yours sincerely


One very frustrated.
Stephanie Taylor.