Yes please! :)

I would love one of these for uni next year.
Cycling around, art supplies in the basket, and maybe sketchbooks or lecture notes in the satchels, oh I'd love it!
I'd love the red one but with the basket like the top one!
They are beautiful! :)
I wishwishwishwishwish!

I'm watching Barefoot Contessa AGAIN!

Day dream.
Doodle.
Day dream.
Doodle.
Day dream.
Doodle.
Day dream.
Doodle.
Day dream.
Doodle.
Day dream.
Doodle.

My days are becoming awfully repetitive.
I think I'll bake a cake this weekend.

paintpaintpaint

For the past three days I've spent 5 hours a day painting the studio, preparing it for the degree show. It been tiring, and I'm all set for three more days of it next week as well. Coming back to reading gets harder and harder, it's like I just don't want to come back anymore, any happiness I had for this place is GONE.
I spend my time drawing, well more doodling but what ever... I've watched a few films, and had a friend over... but the days are DULL! I'm even getting fed up of being on the laptop - which is very odd! GAH! I just want it to be summer already, I can spend my days at home or with Joe. Cannot wait one bit.

Things to do over summer:
- Picnic.
- Go to an aquarium.
- Go to the beach.
- Read my art books.
- Get my ears pierced again! :)

I'll think of more later but for now that's pretty much it, I won't have much money though to be fair, so going out a lot will be hard. BAD TIMES! I am just looking forward to my home, as much as it's cool to have my own room, it's lonely and I miss Joe and Sam.. a lot! Not that I'd admit that to them though.

MAN UP.

After a lovely weekend in Eastbourne for my cousin's wedding, I'm feeling so many different emotions, and there are far too many thoughts circulating in my head. I have had family members come up to me and say "you and Joe will be next".. Um no thank you, I'm only 19, I have got a fair few things I'd like to achieve before even considering marriage!
Anyway.
After spending a perfect few days with Joe, I started to mull over what I'd like to do with myself, and my future for that matter. Travelling being the main aim, followed by becoming an art teacher at GCSE/ALevel, or something around that. Then after I've finished living, I'd like to settle down, if I'm still with Joe I'd love for us to go places together.. I mean I know people usually want to get married and have kids, but there are just too many things I'd love to get out and do.
I'm going to start saving, my main aim at the moment, after getting my degree is to do my PGCE, then take a year out to travel around the US of A. I've got a list of things that I'm planning on doing when I'm out there and I will get out and do them!

It seems that if you don't get out and do the things you want in life, then you lead a wasted life, always wishing you'd taken that one big step. I really don't want that to be me. I have been listening to peoples regrets, broken dreams and failures... I can't listen to them anymore, I do get fed up with people complaining that they didn't have enough will power to succeed with their goals. MAN UP! That won't be me!

:D

Today has been pretty awesome so far.
Here is a little summary..

Woke up, spent some time chatting with Lini, then went to Asdaaaaas with Gablove, Lini and Lydia (which was hilarious!) Came back.. lunchies and more chats. Went and did the washing, so I'm ready to pack for the wedding.. Whilst waiting for that to dry Lini and I went to get a free muffin/cake with our mocha's.. LOVELY!

That's everything up until writing this, so yes, as you can see nothing majorly exciting, but sending time with a few people that really have made my time at Reading lovely! :) Anyway, just a little rant on my happy day...

:)

I'm happy.

if only.

Kat Von D.
She's beautiful, creative and VERY talented.
I envy her.

Megan Fox.
She's pretty damn attractive.

Amy Lee.
Her fashion sense is inspiring to me, well certain aspects of it, and when I get to the size I want to be I'll be wearing similar clothes.

I am fed up.
I need to do something about it!

if only i could tell you...

as I've been listening to my old albums as they are uploaded to my Itunes, I have come across Good Charlotte. A band that for a time I was made fun of for listening to, but I came across my favourite song of of the album.. I'd like to post the lyrics as I am currently feeling like they link with my attitude to a certain person right now.. So here goes..


'Some say that, time changes
best friends can, become strangers.
I don't want that, no not for you,
if you just stay with me we can make it through.
So here we are again, same old argument,
and now I'm wondering if things will ever change.'

♥♥♥

Since yesterday i've..

paid a small deposit on a house for next year, completed my assessment and picked up my essay results. I got a 2.1 :) Still not the highest grade, but second best is always a good start to the first year! I'm happy with the house we have, and my room is massive! I know I'll be a little scared at the beginning, but it'll be fine I know it... they call it growing up.

I fear...

- house hunting.
- making the wrong decision.
- what people will say if I tell them exactly how I'm feeling, especially if it concerns the two above points.
- my performance for assessment tomorrow.
- the essay results that I will be receieving tomorrow.



:[ bad times.

finally.

a positive feeling.
This week is going to go well.

i can't express this enough.

It all started with the chase, I was running in place, always striving and straining, and never obtaining, what should have been mine, from the beginning and Im always hoping to win you, to safely continue in...

Love, Trust
Crushed to dust

and I gave you all that I had
And I STILL LOST


I dread the defeat, Fairytale incomplete, It's so tragic, depressing, Do you love me, I'm still guessing, I've grown tired of the dance, And the death of romance, I'm bleeding, I'm dying, And you're hardly trying


Love, Trust
Crushed to Dust

And I gave you everything that I had
And I STILL LOST


Lets make believe that you want me
As much as I want you
Lets make believe

can't sleep.

it's 1.14am and usually I am in a deep sleep by now. The past few days have been horrible, I've had the worst nightmares, I won't go into detail. But this is getting ridiculous, I HAVE HAD ENOUGH. I need and want sleep! I'm about to tidy up beacause I'd rather not sleep if all that will happen is I'll wake up in half an hour, screaming... AGAIN!

My eyes are the reddest I've ever seen them, the bags underneath them could carry my food shopping, it's getting silly. I don't know how many more sleepless nights I can take, but tonight will do me no harm. so tidy up it is!

i will be spending my time on this..

a drawing that so far has taken up at least an hour of my time.. I expect it shall take upto a good few days to finish.. but as my assessment stuff is finished so BRING IT ON! :)
♥ Kat Von D.

it's times like these..

♥♥♥


When I feel 100% content with life.
He is honestly my world.
Although we've only been together 2 and half years, I do believe he is the boy I am meant to be with. He is perfect in more ways than one. I do believe I have myself a keeper. I know before I have said how I hate people that rant about their love life on blogs etc.. but I believe we have been through one hell of a ride, and I just want to make a statement in saying "Joseph O'Flanagan I do believe I am in love with you, and I don't intend on changing that!"