Wishlist me thinks.

Great men.
Why can I not find one so great that he writes to me, much like the men in this book did to some very lucky women. Is it to much to ask? Do I mean so little?



Then go ahead.. Prove me wrong?

suddenly.

I can't breathe.


I've just realised my course starts in 11 days, I haven't got any ideas for the studio work I want to do this year - NONE. After picking up my new timetable online, and seeing studio days are Thursdays still.. It's nice to know I have the beginning of the week to ponder my ideas, but I'm panicking right now. My chest is doing that thing where it feels so tight I can't breathe, and I know at any moment I'll cry and who knows when it'll stop. I've got to try and focus on the positives.. So far all I've got are these:

- I've got a few ideas for exhibitions.
- I have been reading the textbooks..
- I've paid my rent for next month...

God I don't know.
Maybe this is stupid.
I'm dreading going back, knowing that I'll be the one student in my group struggling again, fighting not to fail. PLEASE PLEASE don't let me score low in the first assessment, that would suck! I think I need to get out and go for a walk.


Shitshitshitshitshitshitshitshitshit!!!

I want one of these..

Please. They are so cute, I saw an article in the newspaper about them, and fell in love with them. I'd like to get one, and let it run around my room and garden, trotting around in puddles and mud. They make me smile.

On another note, things are looking up.
Every cloud and all that!

♥

don't let their words
mark the weakness in your heart.

Lazy lazt girl.

There are countless blogs in which I write about how I've been drawing, and that I'll be posting pictures, I've lied (half lied). TI haven't uploaded a single image this summer, and as of tomorrow that will change, now, I may have only done a few drawings (I'll upload them none the less), but that will change too! I am so disappointed in myself, and my creativity, so much so that I will be doing my best to utilise the next and last two weeks of my holiday to make myself draw/paint/anything!



Oh.. and things are looking up..
Will this next year turn out to be okay?




'Paint all your sorrows for me to sing,
heartkiller
Draw your pain and hear me hum it out.'

:[

I've decided that I don't want to care.
You piss me off, I can't bare to look at you.
You've ruined my summer, my plans and how the beginning of my second year will start.


Thanks.

Yes please.

I think that I may be blowing the last of my birthday money on this camera, and a few packets of film to go with it. We'll see what the mother says.. but to be honest I think I'm going to do it anyway - as I've wanted a Polaroid camera for a good few years now.



:D

Silence seems to be all I have.

'I'm in love with you,
and it's crushing my heart.
All I want is you,
to take me into your arms.'





I'll never say it.

Just LOL.

Whilst browsing my friends facebook, I found she'd posted a link to a site which has some rather witty lines on it..
(www.dearblankpleaseblank.com)

'Dear Fat Chicks,

Please realize when guys say they like girls with curves, that does NOT mean they are accepting of the curves on your double chin and multiple abdomen rolls.. Scarlet Johanssen has "curves." You're just plain ol' FAT.

Sincerely, Can I Interest You In a Treadmill.'

Now, I know I most likely shouldn't laugh, but I cannot help it! There are some very clever comments on the site, and some make me laugh so hard that I cry a little, not that one however as that would be very mean of me, alas it was enough for a little chuckle! I'll leave you with my favourite...

'Dear Buffy,

We have a new assignment for you. His name is Edward.

Sincerely, K.'

gender?

I've become quite obsessed by the idea of drag, and as I watched come dine with me yesterday evening, I witnessed a transvestite man refer to himself as a 'Gender Bender.' Something that a first I found quite shocking, but have now come to find it quite hilarious.
It has given me an idea for some artworks that I'd like to do, based on the idea of 'drag' and how we portray gender, it is a subject I've covered in essays and in lectures, and I'm very interested in seeing what comes from this Idea, so as of tonight, I'll drawing, sketching and writing notes on it.


I'll keep you posted.