This song...

is beautiful, I can't get over it right now.

♥

sometimes...

I wish I was far, far away from here.

Sad times.

Today I left halls.
Bridges Hall 09/10.

It was really quite hard to pack, watching my room slowly fade into a hollow shell, it was horrid. I found myself unable to sleep, staring into and almost asylum like set of blank walls, a pool of off cream paint surrounding me. As I stared at the ceiling I thought over all the times I've spent at Reading, and the friends I've made, and to be honest I'm pretty happy with how my freshers year has panned out. The girls that I have spent the last eight or nine months with, have seen the best and the very worst of me, and I couldn't be happier with the relationships we've made. I do hope that wee stay in contact, and I know that Lini. Gaby and myself will spend a fair amount of time together over the remaining two years of our courses, which is something I truly look forward to!

Back to work lazy student!

I've decided that I do NOT draw enough, or take enough photos for that matter.

There are many beauties that this cruel life holds, so many can be captured by a drawing, a photo or a poem/lyric, and I do intend to cature the ones personal to me. It seems very rude of me to call myself an artist, when really I am slacking in the subject I claim to love, so I'm going to start pulling my weight, and become creative once more.



Summer 2010 - Creativity please.

I've been thinking.

- which is usually never a good thing.


But I've started to realise that the idea of a house and somewhere to call my own is sounding like something I'd like to start working towards. I watch television and some of the rooms that I see - I begin to plan what I'd like for my own house, for example:

This picture of Kat Von D, I know I often write about her, but the bed in this picture is beautiful, and Id love something like that, something traditional and historic. It's strange, I'm just about to turn twenty and suddenly it's like I've grown up and want to get my own house and space.

Gah.

Today was

in a word - PAINFUL!


My job consists of being ordered about by a chef who thinks he's running come kind of high class restaurant, when really he's working in a village pub. The staff there bar a few girls cannot do their job! I know I'm fairly lazy but there's this one girl who is a complete dick... I was so pissed off today that I think I may have yelled at people without meaning to...
I've been at this pub for 5 years now, and I'm really getting fed up. if it wasn't for my lack of university funds I don't think I'd be there anymore, as it's getting harder to find the motivation to even show up.


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I do love it when

my sister comes to visit me in Reading.♥

We (uni people) had planned to have a picnic, and knowing Sam was in study leave I invited her. It was a lovely evening, lots of cakes and biscuits that Lini and myself had made, they went down a treat! :) We sat and talked, played on space hoppers, had a merry old time. I'm really going to miss the D2 corridor! :(

It's a pain that

all this talk of diets is giving me the munchies!
Listening to diet talks, watching food network on sky, is really making me hungry, I know what I've got to do over summer and I'll do it then, but now... I'll enjoy the last of my time at uni munching everything and anything I come across! :)

I'll miss crisps and chocolate.
AND I REFUSE TO DIET IF THEY TAKE RIBENA AWAY FROM ME!

:(

I'll eat when I want to.
I'll drink when I want to.

♥

I've seen you breathe life into the weakest of hearts,
And heard you scream out loud the sweetest poem,
Echoing across the ocean reminding me why I still try,
To hold onto whatever is left of you and I.

I never get the hang

of layouts/backgrounds and various editing techniques mmm.. this new bog background is a little too bright for my liking, but I do love the inky shapes! :D


I've been listening to Dr8Ball/TooLateLucy.. this is never good, I do miss those days, and I'm sure I was much happier with myself then, more so than I am now that's for sure! GAH! I hate this, I can't even write what I'm thinking as I know the wrong people will read it and mistake what I'm saying to mean something else. I need something from the past, just to remember how it felt, and how I should be feeling now!



Please?

pretty much.

Comedy night.

.....was a laugh! :) (Ironic that!)

No, it's the last one of the year, and it was pretty good, I didn't think much of the first two acts though... But the third guy/headliner Mitch Benn, was awesome! He came on with his miniature guitar and did a musical set, much like you'd expect from Bill Bailey! :D Was good times! Prior to this we'd spent our time (4hrs+) in Cafe Mondial drinking coffee and eating free pizza! Oh the life of a student. I'm enjoying time with the guys from D2 corridor, and I'm not looking forward to the idea of everyone leaving in a couple of weeks! I'm trying to soak it up while I can!


♥♥♥D2 Girlie's!!!

I dare you to dream this.

You keep on tempting me to go on whatever the cost,
To witness the prettiest flower in bloom wither to dust,
So I'll break all the rules in this endless game once called love.
For you.

♥March 19th 2010 - I'll remember it always.

People

you have managed to restore some of the little faith I had in the world.

We fell apart..

lets make a new start.

It's the same

every time I go shopping.


One day I'll be who I want to be, I'll be happier and I'll be thinner, not too thin, I mean I completely refuse to be anything smaller than a size ten! But I've let myself get chubby again, it's not the first time, it most likely won't be the last. At least I managed to pick myself up some summer clothes, I'll feel happier knowing the clothes fit me well, even if they are size FAT. My mother and I will be joining weight watchers over summer, I'm mainly doing it to support her weight loss as I only need/want to loose a stone, but I'd like to learn about eating the right foods, and managing food etc, it'll be good for me.

But for now - ENJOY THE LAST FEW WEEKS AT BRIDGES!
My week includes:
-> Sakura rock night Monday.
-> Last comedy night Tuesday.
-> Joe's gig Wednesday.
-> Summer ball Friday! :)

Busybusybusy..
Must loose weight!
Busybusybusy..

To be honest...

it is getting stupid, your family is making me so angry it's starting to put me off you! I know that's wrong but still....

He's vile and disgusting, he repulses me, I can't be in the same room as him. My one fear is that you'll become like him one day, I can't stand the idea, it scares the crap out of me! And, to be quite honest I think your dog is a pain in the arse, I can't stand dogs, and I don't quite know if I can put up with pretending to like him anymore... I know that's mean, I just don't think that I'll ever like dogs.. I only like one dog.. which does totally contradict what I've just written but ARGH!

spiders

will be the life and death of me.

Yet another night where they haunt my dreams, causing me to wake up screaming. I'm really getting fed up of this! :(

pure bliss

is listening to Newton Faulkner,
whilst swinging back and fourth on a swing,
finalist art students work all around you.

Nothing is more inspiring.

It's almost over.

This is my last month in Bridges Hall!
Sad sad times....

I need to get a few things done:
-> Print out all the photos from this year. (The good ones)
-> Get my dress for summer ball next week.
-> Start doing things i'll remember forever!
-> Start acting my age, not some baby who doesn't want to go out.
-> HAVE FUN!

I know I'm going to miss this, no Lydia, Katie, Heather or Rimona next year, and no Gabby as she'll be living far away from our house... I'm not sure how I'll cope without everyone but I'll do it! :) This month will be about having fun! Not being a loser anymore, like the past few weeks of my life!

Bridges 09/10!
D2 CORRIDOR! :)