Tattoo or piercing?

so, i've decided i'm just gunna get my tounge pierced instead of getting my first tattoo.. as i'm not 100% postive about the idea. I know i'll get one eventually, but for now i'm going to stick to piercings.

pin up?

I'm inspired.
I've been watching LA Ink.
I'm going to start drawing some pin ups, and old style tattoo art. I am pleased with this feeling, it makes me happy. I feel arty again!! YAY :)

today...

i'm feeling lost.

Something seems wrong at the moment, i'm floating around, head in the clouds and all the while slowly breaking the hearts of the people that care for me. Sooner or later it'll cause a big problem, oh, and i've decided a few things are going to change.

easter for me =
- loose weight.
- eat less crap and less in general.
- drink more water and cut out beer.
- dress how I want to dress.
- start drawing more.

I am fed up of feeling so bad about myself, and i'm sick of trying to get people to feel sorry for me too. It is my fault that I am the way that I am, only I can change that, and I will change, although the music is staying!

all in an afternoon.

I've decided to do some things to my facebook profile I've been meaning to do for a while, for example, get rid of all the stupid fan pages I've joined. Why I decided to join them in the first place I'll never know! I've also deleted a fair few people from my friend list as I never talk to them so I see no point in keeping them on it.

Also, just for blog purposes I'm going to start scanning my sketches and doodles and posting them on here, as I feel I'm not being very creative for an art student, and my blog is lacking my own personal art work. The title of my blog suggests that some artwork is shown, so be it photos, sketches, doodles or random poetry, I will start posting it up.

Finally, I have also been thinking about the idea of 'growing up'. I have a strange infatuation with HIM, and Kat Von D. This needs to stop! I will most likely never meet them, and Ville Valo will not be my husband, these childish dreams, or fantasies need to be cleared from my mind. However I do highly regard Ville and Kat as artists, and need to only think of them as artists not future friends. To be honest I'm actually quite ashamed of my thoughts of saving up enough money to go to LA to meet Kat (maybe even being tattooed by her), and similarly traveling to Helsinki (Finland) to see Ville Valo... LAME! I know everyone has their dreams of meeting 'famous' people, but I am wasting far too much of my time actually making plans on how I could make my dreams a reality.
This is going to stop. END OF!

here comes the sun.

the weather is awfully chipper today.
i'm looking forward to summer.

one of the best days of my life.

You know when some thing is going so perfectly that there just has to be a catch, well, Friday the 19th of March 2010 was one of those days. Firstly end of term = bonus! (: But, the main point, it was finally the day that I got to see HIM, my favourite band! Joe and I managed to get two people from the front, it was perfect, the view was amazing and I was stood singing with my boyfriend. We had an hour and a half of pur happiness and I can't think of anything that has ever made me that happy, pure bliss. I just kept thinking that something was gunna screw up the evening, the only drawback was the half collapsing during the last song of the encore, but that didn't ruin my evening at all!



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page by page.

As my book develops, further into a plot of which i'm already aware of what happens, it's almost like the story is brand new to me. I love reading a good book, being almost swallowed by the book, entering a word of imagination. LOVELY! (:

I'm sat in my room, and I can smell some form of food, it smells lovely, and is making me quite hungry. Oh well. To be honest I haven't got enough food for a meal.

I'm going to see HIM tomorrow, infact this time tomorrow I will be waiting for them to come on stage! (: You have no idea how excited I am! Tomorrow up until 1 o'clock when i'm being picked up, will be hell, time will pass so slowly.


i love ville valo.

my love for vampire films.

i need a change.
something, anything really.
a new hair cut?


I watched new moon last night, and I've decided, that as bad an actress as she is, I do love Kristen Stewart's hair in that film. It is quite pretty, and I think that this may be the picture I'll take with me to the hair dressers.

Anyway, talking of 'vampire films' I'm reading the first book of the series that the television program true blood comes from, entitled; 'Dead Until Dark.' I've watched all the programs, well as far as the end of season two as that's all there is out at the moment, but... I am very impressed by both the story lines and the characters. I chose to read the books, purely because the books tend to be better, and to be honest it's much more fun imagining the characters in your head.

Bill Compton.
My favourite character! :)
He is the perfect gentleman, but has the right amount of mystery and darkness to him, and to be honest his voice is beautiful!

art has no limit.

(Dita by Marilyn Manson.)
Today I was asked the question:
"Why do you create art?"

I was at first, unsure of how to answer, afterall there are so many reasons why one would create a work of art. I decided to give the answer; 'I used to draw and paint because it was aesthetically pleasing, something beautiful to look at and that showed off my drawing skills. Then I learnt about conceptual art, and now I strive to make an artwork combining the two ideas. I want to better my skills, I'm constantly batteling with myself to make something so beautiful, I could stand back and think... wow.' This question lead me to look at past artworks that sparked my enjoyment of drawing, the artists that I so wanted to be as good as when I grew up. I remember going through Marilyn Manson's water colours when I first got into his music, they are quite beautiful, even if they were created in a drunken state.

non-sense.

It's occured to me how much I've got to do.
And in such a small amount of time.

My brain can't handle the amount of tiny things that need to be done by the end of the month, I'm not sure that I'll be able to do them all. But I'll die trying... I find myself writing numerous amounts of post-its or to-do lists, my bin is full of scrunched up yellow post-its. I'm tired. I need a break. One week till my easter holiday, it couldn't be more needed!



Plans for easter:
- Sleep!
- Essay.
- See people.
- Eat out.
- Documentation.

dare to dream..?

I dreamt that I could make time stop.
Much like Bernard could.
A watch like this one was sat in the palm of my hand, glistening, ticking with a very odd and unusual rythm. It was like watching an episode of Bernard's Watch, because obviously I could change the events occuring in my everyday life, but.. this was strange as I could ony pause one aspect of my day, for example, one person would freeze, rather then the entire population.
So yes. My point being. I would really like to own one of these pocket watches, I think they are beautiful, and I for one would like to own one much like the one in the picture below.


-> Beautiful.

an idol worth creating art for...

Tim Burton.

In one word - Genius.
He has an amazing capability to capture and create the strangest moments in film, he has given life to a number of interesting characters. To name a few, Edward Scissorhands, Jack Skellington and Sally. I must just say that I felt, Mr.Burton left a slither of wonder out of his version of Alice in Wonderland, minor set back. Still even as an artist he holds inspirational qualities, the team of people behind him deserve a mention; Danny Elfman who has scored every film bar one, and, Colleen Atwood, costume designer. I love Colleens work, especially in Alice in Wonderland.

My ideal.
How I should be, but am not.
I know hiding behind a wardrobe of clothes, thrown together purely to get by is pointless, but self confidence in my eyes, is something that I lack entirly. It'll change enirely when my savings reach their peak, and I am able to go shopping for things I actually like the look of, and make me feel good about myself.
Oh.
And I've decided, I will become a more educated person. Liturature. It IS the way forward, i'll start with some classics, just because, they are classic for a damn good reason.